Monday, February 26, 2007. 7:38 AM .
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Hey people.
I just can't help avoiding my blog, so i decided to just put in one interesting post before i take a break. Ha ha. Oh wait wait wait. Before i go on, i wanna dedicate a portion of the blog entry to my sister of Christ who just left the cell for another cell.
ESTHER TAY
Hey. Only just got to know you for less than a year than you so fast run away to another cell group? Ha ha, I'll always remember of how we share songs and all through MSN, and the song you wrote!! LOL, it sounded so funny but its tune is like permanently stuck into my head. Yeah. all the photo taking and your amazing photo editing skills. I was pretty amaze that you're so good with the computer at such age. Well, i was good at it too, but not on the useful side, i am better at entertaining myself with the computer instead of making wonderful stuff with it. haha.
Esther!! Do catch up with each other often okay, you also better grow stronger in your new cell group too. I SPECIALLY MISS MY NEW YEAR DINNER TO HAVE FAREWELL DINNER WITH YOU HOR. SO BETTER GROW STRONG SPIRITUALLY, if not you make me waste my chance of eating good food like lobster and shark fin. haha. okay. very good. Take care always and enjoy yourself. =D
Inspire with what A.R. Bernard thought. i drew this=D
My cousin, really cute boy. hahaha. took it during CNY.
Haha, he learn really fast, he already know how to zi lian already le.
So cute right, he offering a rose. haha. the rose is as big as his head. LOL.
My niece, she also very pretty and adorable. haha.
this was taken on first day of CNY, which coincidently happens to be my mom's and dad's wedding anniversary. Haha, so my daddy put a rose in his mouth and give my mama.
Ohh....sweet loving couple. aiyoyoyoyooooo...
My Ah Gong and Ah Ma. Also so loving. Aiyoyoyoyooooooo.......
Lao ah..Lao ah..Gong xi fa cai!! wah..this was a very chaotic moment, lots of yu sheng when flying high up to the sky and landing all over the table and floor. hahaha. but still have plenty to eat even though much have been lost to the bacterias.
My sis and my niece. hahaha, 2 pretty ladies. aiyo.
My dad and my sister. Do they resemble each other??
My house roses, haha. so nice right. Funny eh, i can't believe i actually got fascinated by those roses.
Wahhh...so big and juicy, only makes me hungry. hahaha. i know where to get those roses, tra la la la la la la. hahaha. but i am not gonna tell you=P imma get such roses for the girl i like some day=D
This flower was found outside my house. really cool eh.
Bah...the grosses shit ever, my sis and i were like discussing on how come our rat glue hasn't caught anything yet, then suddenly my sis saw something struggling, and turn her head to have a better view. AHHH!!. a loud scream came rushing through my ears. I walk towards the rat, it started squeaking and it was super scared. Poor thing, it was like stuck there with it's mouth open half way trying to grab the bait. haha. then we have also a greedy lizard too, attempting to steal the rats bait and got itself stuck there too. well. both of them when into the garbage bag alive i guess. couldn't separate them.
sadistic eh. but that is life.
Time to sleep. Good nite fellow earthlings.
I just can't help avoiding my blog, so i decided to just put in one interesting post before i take a break. Ha ha. Oh wait wait wait. Before i go on, i wanna dedicate a portion of the blog entry to my sister of Christ who just left the cell for another cell.
ESTHER TAY
Hey. Only just got to know you for less than a year than you so fast run away to another cell group? Ha ha, I'll always remember of how we share songs and all through MSN, and the song you wrote!! LOL, it sounded so funny but its tune is like permanently stuck into my head. Yeah. all the photo taking and your amazing photo editing skills. I was pretty amaze that you're so good with the computer at such age. Well, i was good at it too, but not on the useful side, i am better at entertaining myself with the computer instead of making wonderful stuff with it. haha.
Esther!! Do catch up with each other often okay, you also better grow stronger in your new cell group too. I SPECIALLY MISS MY NEW YEAR DINNER TO HAVE FAREWELL DINNER WITH YOU HOR. SO BETTER GROW STRONG SPIRITUALLY, if not you make me waste my chance of eating good food like lobster and shark fin. haha. okay. very good. Take care always and enjoy yourself. =D
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picture time. lalalala.
Inspire with what A.R. Bernard thought. i drew this=D
My cousin, really cute boy. hahaha. took it during CNY.
Haha, he learn really fast, he already know how to zi lian already le.
So cute right, he offering a rose. haha. the rose is as big as his head. LOL.
My niece, she also very pretty and adorable. haha.
this was taken on first day of CNY, which coincidently happens to be my mom's and dad's wedding anniversary. Haha, so my daddy put a rose in his mouth and give my mama.
Ohh....sweet loving couple. aiyoyoyoyooooo...
My Ah Gong and Ah Ma. Also so loving. Aiyoyoyoyooooooo.......
Lao ah..Lao ah..Gong xi fa cai!! wah..this was a very chaotic moment, lots of yu sheng when flying high up to the sky and landing all over the table and floor. hahaha. but still have plenty to eat even though much have been lost to the bacterias.
My sis and my niece. hahaha, 2 pretty ladies. aiyo.
My dad and my sister. Do they resemble each other??
My house roses, haha. so nice right. Funny eh, i can't believe i actually got fascinated by those roses.
Wahhh...so big and juicy, only makes me hungry. hahaha. i know where to get those roses, tra la la la la la la. hahaha. but i am not gonna tell you=P imma get such roses for the girl i like some day=D
This flower was found outside my house. really cool eh.
Bah...the grosses shit ever, my sis and i were like discussing on how come our rat glue hasn't caught anything yet, then suddenly my sis saw something struggling, and turn her head to have a better view. AHHH!!. a loud scream came rushing through my ears. I walk towards the rat, it started squeaking and it was super scared. Poor thing, it was like stuck there with it's mouth open half way trying to grab the bait. haha. then we have also a greedy lizard too, attempting to steal the rats bait and got itself stuck there too. well. both of them when into the garbage bag alive i guess. couldn't separate them.sadistic eh. but that is life.
Time to sleep. Good nite fellow earthlings.
Sunday, February 25, 2007. 8:33 AM .
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EXAMINATION TIME.
Haiz. i'm jaded.
BLOGGING BREAK HAVE ARRIVE.
i've got a second blog actually.
NO TIME TO BLOG.
but it is just nothing but pure literature.
NO TIME TO EVEN SHIT.
it is the place where i speak the unspoken.
JUST GIVE ME A WEEK.
i dun let just let what i want to keep to myself and let everybody know.
AND I'LL BE BACK TO ROCK THE CITY STREETS.
so you've got to guess it. C H _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ - _ E _.blogspot.com
Haiz. i'm jaded.
BLOGGING BREAK HAVE ARRIVE.
i've got a second blog actually.
NO TIME TO BLOG.
but it is just nothing but pure literature.
NO TIME TO EVEN SHIT.
it is the place where i speak the unspoken.
JUST GIVE ME A WEEK.
i dun let just let what i want to keep to myself and let everybody know.
AND I'LL BE BACK TO ROCK THE CITY STREETS.
so you've got to guess it. C H _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ - _ E _.blogspot.com
Wednesday, February 14, 2007. 6:22 AM .
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Time to throw in some wonderful pictures once again from my really quiet blog.
I really dun want to turn emo, but shucks man. it seems to be that i am turning to one. there are so many things i want to say. there are so many things i want to blurt out. there are just too many. but what the hell. all i can do is just keep it to my thoughts.
bah. i'll just go on and present my photos i have with me.
my thoughts below.
Just an updated look of myself, yeah. i know, looks like those act cute picture right.. ya la ya la..i notice that too. hahaha.
After coming out of a Spanish restaurant for my birthday celebration on Saturday, as a family, we went photo-taking using my wonderful phone my bro got for me...=D
Rarely do we get a chance to take photos together as most of the time, in the whole family of 6, we all have our on individual activities. Well, alright, i doubt i can consider it a family of 6 anymore, it seems to be expanding.
hahaha. the bright sunny whether was too hot for many of us that is why we took several pictures in the similar spot. love them all. =D
This is a really cute picture, where my elder bro and my elder sis came hugging the man made cactus. hahaha. we were having a hard time figuring our wad the sculpture is suppose to be. We had like...cucumber, bitter galt and cactus as mention. hahaha. well. in the end i've concluded it is a cactus as there were some other similar figure around except of different size and it resembles a cactus. haha.
Presentation coming up, look at me man, so smartly dressed. haiyo, so not me right. haha. Well, it took me a really long time to adapt to such formal wear.
Haha, just couldn't resist borrowing my friend's shade. every time i see it, my hand itchy. must grab it and wear it. haha. so childish but what to do..that is me mah.
I went night jogging recently, this is my estate, this is my birth place, this is were my history begins.
While jogging through the dark roads lighted with street lamps,
our was totally amaze that many people of my estate goes jogging too.
as far as your sight can go,
you're bound to find another person jogging.
Monday, February 12, 2007. 7:10 AM .
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Revelation.
I was like dying of boredom studying for my up coming exams. So took my guitar and played some praise and worship song to the Lord. Well, i've limited songs to play with my limited guitar skills i have. But i still played nevertheless.
No one was at home so i can openly project my voice without feeling embarrass over my terribly off-tuned singing. Then i started thinking of the previous service that pastor last preach. Haha, i remembered nearly dosing off at the start of the sermon, and at around the mid part, then i finally got up without feeling drowsy anymore.
At that time, I looked at my notes, this time with a conscious mind. i saw...Words, lots of words, all over the page, and i cant decipher many of them. It was like some foreign language i've written. I guess i've miss the first 10 minutes of the sermon i thought.
Okay, so now back to the topic. Yeah, i was thinking about what pastor have said, about we Christians, many a times, we are so irrelevant and we constantly have the "life-boat theory" or something like that, in us. Trying to save as many life and bring them to Christ.
And go forth to a person saying.
"Young man, when you die, do you know whether you're going to heaven or hell??!"....
Many of us in church are in that category of irrelevancy without ourselves knowing, that includes myself and many of us from our great church too. Indeed, what Pastor Kong said is true, we don't have to go around telling people stories of how your mighty God can assure you a change in your life, instead, you should be the story itself, you should be the living testimony. Our society have reach a stage were we lived through practicality, and not theology. And confidently i'll say, my God is not a theology for i've felt His presence before and He spoke to me things that will come to past, He is reality in my opinion. Yeah, back to where i was talking again, as a follower of Christ, we ought to shine wherever possible, and not be a liability to the society instead.
is like, often we go to work/school, and we try spreading the gospel with our really strange character, and we end up with many funny nick names like holy man, weirdo, or even extremist at the end of the day.
In agreement with what my church have just preach, we should be a testimony for God, and let the people come to you instead, let them ask you on how you have successfully attain such high objective, let them look up to u. And they'll follow your path for you will be a leader to them.
And i'll say Amen to that.
I was like dying of boredom studying for my up coming exams. So took my guitar and played some praise and worship song to the Lord. Well, i've limited songs to play with my limited guitar skills i have. But i still played nevertheless.
No one was at home so i can openly project my voice without feeling embarrass over my terribly off-tuned singing. Then i started thinking of the previous service that pastor last preach. Haha, i remembered nearly dosing off at the start of the sermon, and at around the mid part, then i finally got up without feeling drowsy anymore.
At that time, I looked at my notes, this time with a conscious mind. i saw...Words, lots of words, all over the page, and i cant decipher many of them. It was like some foreign language i've written. I guess i've miss the first 10 minutes of the sermon i thought.
Okay, so now back to the topic. Yeah, i was thinking about what pastor have said, about we Christians, many a times, we are so irrelevant and we constantly have the "life-boat theory" or something like that, in us. Trying to save as many life and bring them to Christ.
And go forth to a person saying.
"Young man, when you die, do you know whether you're going to heaven or hell??!"....
Many of us in church are in that category of irrelevancy without ourselves knowing, that includes myself and many of us from our great church too. Indeed, what Pastor Kong said is true, we don't have to go around telling people stories of how your mighty God can assure you a change in your life, instead, you should be the story itself, you should be the living testimony. Our society have reach a stage were we lived through practicality, and not theology. And confidently i'll say, my God is not a theology for i've felt His presence before and He spoke to me things that will come to past, He is reality in my opinion. Yeah, back to where i was talking again, as a follower of Christ, we ought to shine wherever possible, and not be a liability to the society instead.
is like, often we go to work/school, and we try spreading the gospel with our really strange character, and we end up with many funny nick names like holy man, weirdo, or even extremist at the end of the day.
In agreement with what my church have just preach, we should be a testimony for God, and let the people come to you instead, let them ask you on how you have successfully attain such high objective, let them look up to u. And they'll follow your path for you will be a leader to them.
And i'll say Amen to that.
1:51 AM .
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oh man, i was like going through my trillion songs i have in my computer, then i came across this song. I miss this song. Reminds me of secondary school.
Rufio - Don't Hate Me
I remember when we would laugh all night
and nothing could stop us
moments shared we're picture perfect
memories remain
All I want is to be just friends
understand, but don't hate her
Feelings change
No strength in me
I'm sorry, my love for you is gone
My love is gone
Honesty is all
We make mistakes I know
And I knew something's wrong
I couldn't lead you on
Well I see, you and me
Separating for good
No more friends, this can't be
My best friends gone
All I want is to be just friends
understand, but don't hate her
Feelings change
No strength in me
I'm sorry, my love for you is gone
My love is gone
Honesty is all
We make mistakes I know
And I knew something's wrong
I couldn't lead you on
Night is over
Orange haze has
Filled my eyes again
She's not perfect
I'm still feeling
Weak inside when she's around
Well don't hate me
Don't hate me, don't hate me
We're all done, we're all done
We're all done, we're all done
All I want is to be just friends
understand, but don't hate her
Feelings change
No strength in me
I'm sorry, my love for you is gone
So please don't hate me
Rufio - Don't Hate Me
I remember when we would laugh all night
and nothing could stop us
moments shared we're picture perfect
memories remain
All I want is to be just friends
understand, but don't hate her
Feelings change
No strength in me
I'm sorry, my love for you is gone
My love is gone
Honesty is all
We make mistakes I know
And I knew something's wrong
I couldn't lead you on
Well I see, you and me
Separating for good
No more friends, this can't be
My best friends gone
All I want is to be just friends
understand, but don't hate her
Feelings change
No strength in me
I'm sorry, my love for you is gone
My love is gone
Honesty is all
We make mistakes I know
And I knew something's wrong
I couldn't lead you on
Night is over
Orange haze has
Filled my eyes again
She's not perfect
I'm still feeling
Weak inside when she's around
Well don't hate me
Don't hate me, don't hate me
We're all done, we're all done
We're all done, we're all done
All I want is to be just friends
understand, but don't hate her
Feelings change
No strength in me
I'm sorry, my love for you is gone
So please don't hate me
Friday, February 09, 2007. 5:58 PM .
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Replies to tags....
cechao: Hahaha. pastor kong even better right, he not only said it, he even perform it and he is even going to Taiwan and preach with it. Super sia.
esther: Hello little Esther. Sup..
alright, so here is my conclusion, to say that you have no achievements is living a life of self-denial. Getting out of your mama womb is already a challenge. So that is an achievement too. Out of words eh? haha. got you guys there.
cechao: Hahaha. pastor kong even better right, he not only said it, he even perform it and he is even going to Taiwan and preach with it. Super sia.
esther: Hello little Esther. Sup..
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alright. now how and where do i begin this post.
feel so down and depress. i left 18 less years to live in this wonderful world. that makes it a staggering amount of 6,575 days of live spent including today. sad right? aiyo. then to make it worst, out of those 6,575 days depreciated, how much achievements have made so far? haiyo. really ah..dunno wad to say for myself, can just go bang myself against the wall and just die sia.
then again, why should i live such an emo life and think of it the other way round instead. well. Shiok sia. i've successfully got over 18 years of my life without really dying. that is something to be proud off yea, cuz not everybody have the chance to even get accross their 5 year old mark. hmmm. i'll consider that an achievement. haha. i feel enlighten, that explain why when people greet another person happy birthday, they'll go.."congrat dude, you're 18 already."
haha. u see. there is a need to congrat the person, which means an achievement is done. So what can u conclude?
haha. u see. there is a need to congrat the person, which means an achievement is done. So what can u conclude?
alright, so here is my conclusion, to say that you have no achievements is living a life of self-denial. Getting out of your mama womb is already a challenge. So that is an achievement too. Out of words eh? haha. got you guys there.
Monday, February 05, 2007. 3:38 AM .
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Replies to taggers on my tagbox.
Mother: whoa mama. wad are u doing here? yeah. no doubt could i ever win my mama. my mama win me. CORRECT!?? See..ur son so smart, time to get him something in reward. Hint hint, my birthday coming..LOL. Good idea right? haha.
Cechao: yeah man, tag board is back which means chaos can once again come to my blog. haha. even then, i cant make it this Friday for training, i'll come subsequently though. hahaha. I'm so excited about it..LOL. running 21 km is very challenging indeed. haha.
Mother: whoa mama. wad are u doing here? yeah. no doubt could i ever win my mama. my mama win me. CORRECT!?? See..ur son so smart, time to get him something in reward. Hint hint, my birthday coming..LOL. Good idea right? haha.
Cechao: yeah man, tag board is back which means chaos can once again come to my blog. haha. even then, i cant make it this Friday for training, i'll come subsequently though. hahaha. I'm so excited about it..LOL. running 21 km is very challenging indeed. haha.
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hmmmm. i shall talk about Saturday service with pastor Ulf Ekman.
alright. but where do i begin. Intended date to be read: 9th February 2007
hey jas-, i hope you found this msg not through by chance but by receiving the first msg i send you.
hmmm. haha. very risky but still have to be done. innovation have to begin somewhere
alright, he was telling us to reach out to the lost, he was prophesying about our church going out into the mission field. and I'll start it like this.
then he prayed for our church to rise up more people to enter it.
then he said, well, there is a part where i really feel a little unfair on how life is made.
but yet, it is still a duty and someone have to do it. And since I'm the guy, it is by order of
those who will go out to the mission field the moment God ask you to even though you cant predict what is up next for you, please come to the front of the stage.(something like that, cant recall exactly what he said.) nature for me to take the initiative to tell you of my feelings that I've got for you. Yes. You probably guessed it already on what I'm trying to say to you right. It took me a
i stood there at my seat, and prayed.really long time to actually gather my courage and tell you this, a little encouragement please. Haha. Yeah. All my great ideas
i ask God what is his plans for me, He didn't say, but something just tells me to go to the front. i was confuse and afraid. And then God spoke through pastor Ulf,and plans were birth forth a long time ago, but it is just that i felt that i need more time to prepare it. And so i decided to use my birthday as my
"Go out to the real world, feel what is it like to be out there, your life will be far more interesting." and he continued saying about something, which i currently seems to have problem recalling wad he said, it is something to do about not be afraid or something. yeah. something like that.golden opportunity to tell you how i feel for you.Yes.You're right!
"Go out to the real world, feel what is it like to be out there, your life will be far more interesting." and he continued saying about something, which i currently seems to have problem recalling wad he said, it is something to do about not be afraid or something. yeah. something like that.golden opportunity to tell you how i feel for you.Yes.You're right!
well, at the same time, i felt the presence of God around, and so i decided to go forth and take that step of faith. I LIKE YOU. 3 simple words. that is all. Saying these, i really hope that we can take on a new level of friendship. Yup.
At the alter court, my legs were trembling and tears trickled down my cheeks. i was in my own world discussing with myself and constantly questioning if i knew what on planet Earth do knew what i was doing. Then i started to take a glimpsed of what was going around, and the pastors were going around praying for those who were at the alter court. and soon my turn came, and i knew that God was there.More than just study mate. More than just church mate. More than just best friends. You know
He touched my head and i fell to the ground, from that point on, i knew that I've made a commitment to God, that i would step out of this land, and do missions too. what i mean. i know that this year is a
I was still afraid, I've just made a commitment, what if i can't perform it? what if i just don't have the time to spare? what if.., and the "if" statement just goes on and on and on.very busy and important year for you as you'll be taking your o levels and all. But i want to be there for you. I want to be the one
i open eyes as soon as i knew i was firmly on the ground, and stared to the ceiling. The piercing lights from the stage shine deep down into my eyes, i knew it was time that i rise up to another level. i got up and soon after, the pastor came up and said it is time to take on china and get them to Christ. that stand by you and encourages you to press on, i want to be the one that make your stressful studying life a fun and enjoyable one.
And my jaw drop and it was at the verge of dislocating. CHINA?? how on earth am i going to survive there if ever i were to plant myself there as a missionary? but after awhile, i thought to myself, I'm a Chinese after all, why would i die there? apart from my rotten spoken Chinese, i can read and write Chinese. so I'll probably survive there. At the very most, I'll just study Chinese from the basic again. Easier said than done though. Can i be that special someone? You're the first person I've said this to and i am serious. i hope you will give me the honor and the chance
oh well. to express how i feel. Thats my birthday wish, and you're the only one who can fulfil it.
If you feel that i'm not sincere enough, here is how it goes...
Lord. I believe, help my unbelief.I'll see you at your block downstairs 5 minutes before midnight. I'll be there.
Thursday, February 01, 2007. 5:43 AM .
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Tags.
Karen. : haha. yeah. i forgot to save my tagbox in my computer.
but thank God last time i save my old tag box, that is y can use this tagbox now. haha.
Karen. : haha. yeah. i forgot to save my tagbox in my computer.
but thank God last time i save my old tag box, that is y can use this tagbox now. haha.
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my D-Day is arriving.
"For The Moments I Feel Faint"
oh my, the day is really nearing. i m getting a little nervous man.
Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?
i really really really die die die hope she will accepts me man.
[Chorus:]
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.
wah, i cannot imagine if i end with the same 下场 as __ sia.
Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong
cannot, Basil, you must have a positive attitude, don't be afraid.
I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear
It is a thing every man have to go through, 9 of February is your turn. Go for it man.
[Chorus]
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands
Haha, all the best to myself, BASIL, 加油!!!
lets just hope no one see this msg:)
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Man!! i love this song, i just love it.
it is like so super meaningful lah.
imma change my song to that when i can find the right person to do it..haha