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Monday, September 21, 2009. 8:50 AM .

there is something wrong with my stupid blogskin.
crap

Tuesday, June 02, 2009. 2:48 PM .

Ignorant and naive a young soul may be
Made with purity for all to see

Happiness poured in and the soul redefines
Refreshing new moments to keep it alive

Sorrow flashed out the many months of joy
Weakens the young soul with a costly price

Moments of lies has taught it to seek truth
Telling the truth has taught it to finally keep lies
Referring to whom who choose to believe that i wrote it for.
The number-code of the first alphabet is you.
Reply to FANG!!!
GOSH!! Where have you been for the last 1000 years yo!?!?! Haha. my blog still remains the same eh? haha.

End of tags.

Nothing to blog yo. It's freaking 6am now. I have to sleep. NIGHT!

Saturday, May 30, 2009. 11:59 AM .

Sophistication has taught me to appreciate the simple
Interestingly simpleness does not seems exist when it is appreciated
Meaningless are all things to the simple that meets the sophisticated
Priceless they become when the sophisticated understands the simple
Losing simplicity is painful
Ending all sophistication is ridiculous

Reply to tags.
Ching: hello. yup. so paiseh. now wearing braces. haha. oops. beat karen in getting it first though. haha=P

Georginaaa: Hello!! yo! i miss you peeps yo!! do mine if i come back and visit you guys?! LOL.

py: :( that sounds like a really depressing lunch for me...

To my friend whom i least understand: I really don't know how much i can further comprehend this. Give me time.

End of my tags

My quick updates about me!!
Hey peeps.
I'm officially a qualified driver!! Heh heh...sounds awesome eh.? Sounds too good to be true for me too. Oh oh..i'm also an offical graduade of NYP with the cert of dip. in banking and financial services!! woot. Many happenings in the week haha. I do not know where to begin eh. haha. anyway..no pictures today.

blogging!
Today is the day I see myself in a different light, and i realise one thing. I'm limited in capacity. My heart sank to the depths of my feet when i knew about it. That lead me to another realisation that my mind and my heart is now really far apart. my mind was in cloud nine and my heart was just smelling my toes. It was a really strange feeling, never felt before, i felt so extreme that i didnt' know if logic make sense or if emotions are correct. Crazy eh? Yeah. totally agree. both are pulling me hard on each extreme, i feel like a rope in the game of tug-of-war. it is just a matter of time before i snap. When will emotions and logic start becoming friends and not rivals. damn.

Sunday, May 17, 2009. 12:34 PM .

History never seems to change,

But my life ain't the same.
Maybe that's why my name stays the same,
while my mind is totally change.

Reply to taggers after 5th April 2009 till today.
py: yes i do fear, "the first sign of wisdom is having the fear of the Lord". =D anyway, lets have round 2 of lunch together with Naomi when my teeth feels better. haha

viian: Haha. Well, i didn't know u like fishing. hehe. but yeah. i'll call you along so as long as i remember k. stay awesome=]

ADVERTISERS: OH CRABBY GRAPES AND PEPPERONI, GO FIND SOMEWHERE ELSE TO ADVERTISE FOR THE SAKE OF HUMANITY AND ALL MAN-KIND PLEASE.

end of tags

This entry will be made of 3 parts in my blog

PART I
Remember the last time I made attempts to write a diary on the blog and how i detested it. I'm going to try the 2nd time, let's hope it works.

Hey. I've really a lot in my mind for the last 1 month. Both good and bad. I don't know where to start but I'll start here. It has already been a month since i last go drunk. Thankfully I ain't thinking of having the sick feeling again, ha! it screwed me bad enough already. Really sorry to the victim though.
For the last few days I've been talking to a friend through phone messages and phone calls. Well, my friend needed some help. She needed a pair of working ears to listen, and so I offered. After few days of intense listening, I realized my insufficiency were too much to comprehend what she had to offer. My friend told me i won't understand, and my friend was right, i really don't.
You know diary, i really hate writing about things i don't like to talk about, but it is the things that i hate that seems to bother me then the things that I enjoy. Sheesh..Screw it. I dun wanna write no more, least i expose more of those that should be kept aside.

I guess writing a diary was never my cup of tea.

Anyway. Reading what I've wrote, it makes me think that I've got problems to resolve in my life and I guess one way i can start it with is by saying it here.

To my victim when i was drunk: I don't blame the liquor, i don't blame your feelings, i don't blame anyone but, myself, for the lack of self-control. Yes, you saw me ran! i was fleeing and avoiding eye contact, not because i wasn't sincere about my apology, but i was ashame, i was afraid, there was no way i could be myself if i had stood there.

To my friend whom i least understand: 3 is a number that is too big for me to count in a "problem sum", if #1 walks by the shattered stainglass, #2 have been admiring the stainglass art, then where is #3 placed at? 1...2...???? I do wonder at times if i'm part of the "problem sum", please enlighten me.

end of Part I

PART II
Jellyfishes!!!
Remember my last post said that i killed 2 jellyfishes?! Here are the pics of them. The pictures will explain them for itself. enjoy!!

end of Part II

PART III
Praise the Lord!! I'm moving on stronger in faith! I'm finally playing guitar for the cell group!! Haha. i'm so stressed about, but praise the Lord once again!! Cuz i've got a member in my cell who is rising up with me so that things won't be so boring! Yay!
Also. not to forget, i'm officially wearing braces! You can refer to the top, the very first picture. look closely, and u'll notice my mouth is filled with metal!!. Hey! don't laugh at me. Remember the story of the ugly duckling??! i guess that's how things are gonna be for me. haha. smile! =D

The end

Tuesday, April 14, 2009. 10:40 AM .

i killed 2 jellyfishes just fishing yesterday.
i can't believe i did that.

Sunday, April 05, 2009. 11:33 AM .

tag reply to:
JingTing: Haha. yeah. I put in alot of effort making that post interesting cuz i really did enjoy much of the trip. Well, keep reading my blog yeah, it doesn't update frequently but it will always be updated so as long i'm alive=)

Here is a short entry on what I've tried out today!
Today, i tried making myself as emo as i can be. Unfortunately, it didn't really felt as if i've hit the max for it. Anyway, I had the help of one of my friend to try to get me to that state.

Here is what i find out about myself; when i'm in a state of dysfunctional emotions running through my thoughts, the feeling of fear seems to disappear. Fear of feeling physical pain and spiritual encounters(ghost) are what I've tried out. I shan't get to details on things i've tired.

Why do i specifically mention fear?
Fear is a very primitive emotion that is created from the amygdala of the brain. Often fear(panic) can be countered by the frontal lobes of the human brain which does the reasoning. This allows the human brain to defeat fear through reasoning by practicing cost-benefits.

What i'm trying to conclude about fear and dysfunctional emotions.
When a person is in state of depression, anything that relates to fear seems possible to overcome. And maybe that is why depressed people do not consider death as a fearful thing unlike those in a sane mind. Depress people even take blades to slash their wrist, they lost the fear for pain too!

End of post.
Short eh?

Saturday, March 21, 2009. 8:14 AM .

Outta the country once again!

This time...
MALAYSIA!!

Reply to Wilson Choo Wei Chen:
Yeah. One of the pics have the same eyes and nose sia. Anyway, stay healthy and smoke lesser yo. Dun fall sick again when we go overseas uh.. haha.

The trip to Malaysia staring..

Wilson

WenHao

Basil

Yeah..it was just the 3 of us. Called numerous amount of friends but all turned us down sadly. Nevermind, we still kick ass our way through Malaysia.
Started our tripped out to Malaysia at 20th March 2009 12.10am
After crossing the causeway, we decided to go grab some food first before making our way to the place where we would lodge. While having our supper, we notice some Malaysians were "clubbing". The beat was on, in the very much high class kopitiam settings with the old school DJ Jukebox playing the music. Pretty interesting sight to see that really happening coffeeshop spicing up the night of Johor.

The Journey From Johor Bahru to Ulu Tiram

And so we made our way from Johor Bahru all the way down to K. Ulu Tiram where we stayed there. We arrive there at about 3.10am. Wanted to make contact with our parents, but all hell break loose when we realised that all our phones do not have roaming. So at that late hour, we decided to take the risk of being robbed, murdered, or raped and walk the dark streets of Malaysia in desperation to find a phone that can contact Singapore. We gave up finding, and decided to get back to sleep and by that time it was 5 am already.

The Journey from Ulu Tiram to Sedili Besar.

We got up early that morning and left the place for brunch and had chicken rice that tasted like heaven. Then bought some bait that smelled like dead corpse. After that, we made our damn long journey down to Kg. Sedili Besar for fishing. Down there, it was really the rural area of Malaysia where it was still at its kampong settings. It was very interesting, cause as we left the cab and saw it drove away from us, we started to wonder on how were we going to get the cab back to Ulu Tiram after we're done fishing.

The Chicken Rice Store that led us to Earthly Heaven

Wen Hao sipping his hot cup of coffee before we left for Sedili Besar

Kg. Sedili Besar. They having this mini Pasar Malan

It was our first daytime fishing expedition, we usually have it at night. So yeah, you can expect some bloopers that happen. Well, our most interest case came from WenHao where he actually casted his line onto the ship instead of the sea. If only I had took a picture of his face that time, it was the classic Kodak moment, but i shan't get into it.

The left most boat is the boat that Wenhao casted his line onto.

By the later afternoon, most of us were dying already by then. Although it was pretty cloudy, the heat still got us and we were dying. And just next to us from where we were fishing were the villager's kids jumping into the river playing. Gosh, you do not know how tempted i was to join them, however, just the sight of the river totally change my mind as the shores of it were filled with mud skippers basking under the baking sun. Finally, we could not take it no more, by evening of that day, we made our way back to Ulu Tiram and have a good rest.

Biggest catch by Wenhao.

The catfish we caught

The streets of Sedili Besar with Wenhao posing there

The Chickens and it's Chick(Look closely and you'll notice them).

A picture of me with in the cab on our way back to Ulu Tiram

By next day, Wilson fell really sick, and wenhao received a new divine singlet from God for catching the biggest catch. We were suppose to fish but due to the 2 casualties leaving only the last masketeer standing, it was called off and we decided to go back earlier.

Yup!! That's all!
Btw, that is my first time going out of the country without any guardian. So yeah, congrats to me man. Ha! Night!