Saturday, July 01, 2006. 9:43 PM .
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yesterday was the worst few days ever in my life.
it just cant get any worst then it.
the day actually began quite well.
played softball in the morning.
i was the first person to hit a homerun for that day.
and every team i join, the team will win.
how cool is that.
lol.
however, at my last game before i left for church.
i accidentally hurt myself.
it was my turn to bat.
everyone thought i was gonna do a very hard hit. and so they all stand far back.
however. when i bat. i gave a high shot that it went across the infield but way infront of the outfield. so they all couldn't catch it.
by the time the ball really landed, i was already at my first base.
the right fielder fumbled with the ball..and he was panicking to get the balls in his hands.
i manage to run to 3rd base because of that.
then i lead off from 3rd base.
the right fielder threw the ball down to 3rd base.
during the ball flight, i attemp my run to homeplate.
but before i really reach the homeplate, i wanted to slide because it was a very tight situation.
however, went i slide, my boots grip was too great.
it cause this sudden stop, making me role and tumbled down to the homeplate.
it was a HOMERUN!!!
but however i hurt my leg because of that.
after that game, i rush home to take a bath.
done with that, i hurried down to the main road of my house.
i tried to held a cab.
i stop nearly 10 cabs, all the cabs refuse to send me down to expo cuz they were changing shift.
i was so frustrated that i took out my handphone and was about to call for a cab when suddenly, and finally, a cab came and stop for me. i was like "praise the Lord! Finally!"
it took about 15 minutes from my house down to expo.
left 5 minutes b4 service starts.
and so i limp my way down to church.
i had to sit alone cuz i wasn't able to come on time to grap the sit with my cellgroup.
so i was alone by myself filled with strangers around me.
during praise, i sang with joy.
during worship, de ja vu..a vision came to me.
so i prayed.
this vision i had was something that was going to occur within the next 2 hours time after i got the vision.
and so, during worship. i teared. hoping that things would not come to past.
then pastor sermon was about pressing on to the vision.
and then he started praying for all the leaders and laying hands on them.
during that period. i took this time to make my own sincere prayer to the Lord.
at that prayer, i prayed for my cellgroup.
i prayed for revival to come upon it.
i told the Lord that i was sorry for not taking enough initiative to reach out.
i also prayed that i would be able to rise up and serve the cell group,
i would also be more loving to my own members and all.
i was a long powerful prayer i've made.
i was tearing while praying..the holy spirit was there, i could feel it.
service ended as soon as it began. i went to look for the cell.
found them, then we look for one corner to sit.
there were 4 of us in total, Hendri, Huimin, Christian, and I.
hendri's eyes were red from crying, i guess he was touch by the sermon.
then he finally spoke.
by the tone of his voice, i knew it was something serious.
he finally spoke the key thing that i wasn't pleasing to my ears and thoughts.
"i'm disbanding the cell group." he said.
by that line alone, i was in a way angry with him for giving up so easily.
but then i was also sad. basically the thing that i would least expect to heppen to my cell actually happened!!
so hendri did his final talk as a leader to us.
he shared with us a little of his feelings.
then he offered us if we have anything to share.
i had... but i was muted by the clouding thoughts in my mind.
i just could'nt speak. it is like. if ever i were to open my mouth, i was certain i would burst out in tears. so i kept silent.
so hendri decided to pray for us all.
we prayed hard. i was speaking in the spirit while hendri was leading the prayer. i could hear the weeping next to me, it was huimin, she couldn't hold no longer, she burst out in tears.
soon i could hold no longer, my eyes began to watered as i the prayer goes on.
And as soon as the prayer was over,
without my conscience working on me.
i just got up of my seat where i was sitting and gave my leader a really great big hug.
for i knew one thing. he still loves us dearly, and i was touch.
i hug him for really quite awhile, and during that hug.
i lose control of my tears flood gates.
rivers of tears stream down my cheek and wet his shoulder.
i had this short of air feeling. i was like gasping for oxygen as i cried.
i just cant help facing the fact that my cell is no more.
i still remembered the time when we first mulitiplied and became 2
what a glorious event. praise the Lord for it.
i still remember the time where hendri had to try to seperate both the cell from meeting up together too often as we already have multiplied and are no more one.
finally i release poor brother hendri from the bear hug i gave him.
i bet he was touch. cuz his flood gates were let loose too.
We walk outta hall one and headed for coffee bean, for that is where christian and huimin new allocated cell group were at.
They were warmly welcome and by sister shilin.
And as for me. I was allocated to brother Johnson cellgroup.
but i wasn't able to meet him, for he have left expo already.
haix.
so in the end, hendri and i were left.
we walk over to the coffee shop and hendri treated me dinner.
and he name it the "last supper"..
lol.
we had our fellowship there, then when on to meet sister Audrey that was at BK.
haiyo..felt like a faggot that day. cry so much..aiyo.
dun wanna write anymore.
too sad to go one typing.
buaix.
it just cant get any worst then it.
the day actually began quite well.
played softball in the morning.
i was the first person to hit a homerun for that day.
and every team i join, the team will win.
how cool is that.
lol.
however, at my last game before i left for church.
i accidentally hurt myself.
it was my turn to bat.
everyone thought i was gonna do a very hard hit. and so they all stand far back.
however. when i bat. i gave a high shot that it went across the infield but way infront of the outfield. so they all couldn't catch it.
by the time the ball really landed, i was already at my first base.
the right fielder fumbled with the ball..and he was panicking to get the balls in his hands.
i manage to run to 3rd base because of that.
then i lead off from 3rd base.
the right fielder threw the ball down to 3rd base.
during the ball flight, i attemp my run to homeplate.
but before i really reach the homeplate, i wanted to slide because it was a very tight situation.
however, went i slide, my boots grip was too great.
it cause this sudden stop, making me role and tumbled down to the homeplate.
it was a HOMERUN!!!
but however i hurt my leg because of that.
after that game, i rush home to take a bath.
done with that, i hurried down to the main road of my house.
i tried to held a cab.
i stop nearly 10 cabs, all the cabs refuse to send me down to expo cuz they were changing shift.
i was so frustrated that i took out my handphone and was about to call for a cab when suddenly, and finally, a cab came and stop for me. i was like "praise the Lord! Finally!"
it took about 15 minutes from my house down to expo.
left 5 minutes b4 service starts.
and so i limp my way down to church.
i had to sit alone cuz i wasn't able to come on time to grap the sit with my cellgroup.
so i was alone by myself filled with strangers around me.
during praise, i sang with joy.
during worship, de ja vu..a vision came to me.
so i prayed.
this vision i had was something that was going to occur within the next 2 hours time after i got the vision.
and so, during worship. i teared. hoping that things would not come to past.
then pastor sermon was about pressing on to the vision.
and then he started praying for all the leaders and laying hands on them.
during that period. i took this time to make my own sincere prayer to the Lord.
at that prayer, i prayed for my cellgroup.
i prayed for revival to come upon it.
i told the Lord that i was sorry for not taking enough initiative to reach out.
i also prayed that i would be able to rise up and serve the cell group,
i would also be more loving to my own members and all.
i was a long powerful prayer i've made.
i was tearing while praying..the holy spirit was there, i could feel it.
service ended as soon as it began. i went to look for the cell.
found them, then we look for one corner to sit.
there were 4 of us in total, Hendri, Huimin, Christian, and I.
hendri's eyes were red from crying, i guess he was touch by the sermon.
then he finally spoke.
by the tone of his voice, i knew it was something serious.
he finally spoke the key thing that i wasn't pleasing to my ears and thoughts.
"i'm disbanding the cell group." he said.
by that line alone, i was in a way angry with him for giving up so easily.
but then i was also sad. basically the thing that i would least expect to heppen to my cell actually happened!!
so hendri did his final talk as a leader to us.
he shared with us a little of his feelings.
then he offered us if we have anything to share.
i had... but i was muted by the clouding thoughts in my mind.
i just could'nt speak. it is like. if ever i were to open my mouth, i was certain i would burst out in tears. so i kept silent.
so hendri decided to pray for us all.
we prayed hard. i was speaking in the spirit while hendri was leading the prayer. i could hear the weeping next to me, it was huimin, she couldn't hold no longer, she burst out in tears.
soon i could hold no longer, my eyes began to watered as i the prayer goes on.
And as soon as the prayer was over,
without my conscience working on me.
i just got up of my seat where i was sitting and gave my leader a really great big hug.
for i knew one thing. he still loves us dearly, and i was touch.
i hug him for really quite awhile, and during that hug.
i lose control of my tears flood gates.
rivers of tears stream down my cheek and wet his shoulder.
i had this short of air feeling. i was like gasping for oxygen as i cried.
i just cant help facing the fact that my cell is no more.
i still remembered the time when we first mulitiplied and became 2
what a glorious event. praise the Lord for it.
i still remember the time where hendri had to try to seperate both the cell from meeting up together too often as we already have multiplied and are no more one.
finally i release poor brother hendri from the bear hug i gave him.
i bet he was touch. cuz his flood gates were let loose too.
We walk outta hall one and headed for coffee bean, for that is where christian and huimin new allocated cell group were at.
They were warmly welcome and by sister shilin.
And as for me. I was allocated to brother Johnson cellgroup.
but i wasn't able to meet him, for he have left expo already.
haix.
so in the end, hendri and i were left.
we walk over to the coffee shop and hendri treated me dinner.
and he name it the "last supper"..
lol.
we had our fellowship there, then when on to meet sister Audrey that was at BK.
haiyo..felt like a faggot that day. cry so much..aiyo.
dun wanna write anymore.
too sad to go one typing.
buaix.